I feel like this is such an important message and one that correlates to my life so much lately in two completely different ways.
I usually have social anxiety when it comes to partaking in group activities with people I do not know. Two months ago, I signed up to join a volleyball league in the city. I wanted to meet new people while playing a sport that I enjoy. I played volleyball from elementary school to my first year of high school, so it had been a while since I recreationally and competitively played the sport. I signed up for the intermediate level instead of the competitive level because I wasn’t super ready to get that intense. Well, needless to say, I am a bit rusty and I woke up today with sore palms and forearms from spiking the ball too much (which I need to learn—is not the most effective way to get the ball over the net. I need to learn to set the ball as well.) I also realized that I need to do as much as I can to save the ball.
However, I feel like whenever I play a sport, there is always that ONE person and in most cases with me, that ONE man, who has to give constructive criticism in the most offensive and condescending way. I enjoy constructive criticism when given politely but when someone makes me and my teammates feel stupid, that is when I have a problem. I think my next goal is to just play a better game next week and to block out any constructive criticism that is negatively delivered.
In the other part of my life, I’ve realized that I am ready to date. With the support and well, for lack of better terms, forcefulness of my best friends, I have signed up for a dating site. I think this will help me in the one part of my life that is so unhealthy—my completely and utter lack of motivation to get over a certain someone. Some days I am fine and some days, like yesterday, I am down for the count, listening to sad songs about love and trust and breaking barriers. The only way to get over someone is to get under someone else…just kidding, but you get the drift. I need to put myself out there. I have a lot to offer. And if things don’t work out, I will at least get a new experience and possibly a new friend out of it.